As I was sitting along one of the seats in the jeepney, I can’t stop thinking what happened before I sat there.
First is that one of the persons closest to me has just celebrated her birthday. I gave her a gift that I bought in a mall just before going to class. Am I doing this just because it’s her birthday? Apparently not. I am doing this because I have developed a deep attachment to that person. But that attachment seems to just rust out as every day passes. I do not know why and I am hoping that she would tell me so that I could clear my mind regarding that matter.
Second, I have met my long lost friends wherein they are one of the reasons why I am showing one of my alter egos, my jolly side. It’s as if I am Sensui in the anime, Ghost Fighter.
Third, I have gained a new acquaintance and a new friend as well in the form of the student council’s head of the finance committee (hugs, hugs, hugs. Hahahaha). In an instant, I became one of the staff under the finance committee. We do share some stories and found out that we have things in common.
Fourth, (angry… just a little…) I am thinking why I am being badly criticized by someone whom I do not have any hard feelings with not until now. It’s not that I do not accept criticisms, it’s just because it affects the way I get along with you and with others as well. Don’t be surprised when I turn my back on you, it’s your fault anyway. We both work professionally but outside the room, it’s as if you are just another person who wants to pull me down through your messages. Do not use those crappy “--- ---- --- --- I am” and “--- --- --- ---- me enough” excuses as your scapegoat. That won’t work on me. If I had not noticed what you have done, I would just be an idiot smiling to you while you do those things that would ruin other person’s impression to me. Who wants to be backstabbed anyway? I can’t let this kind of things happen to me so I have to type it out. Now let’s get this straight. Why are you doing this to me? Is it because I loved the things that you loved? Are you sure that I loved that person just because I want to go with the flow? Let me tell you something. I do have my own mind that tells me what I should do and my own heart that tells me what I should feel. Do not be selfish, she’s not even yours in the first place and I ought to tell this also: “I will not also be selfish ‘cause she’s neither mine in the first place”. Don’t let this get worse else, everything that we’ve been built will just turn into trash and that person would turn her back on both of us. Either of us doesn’t want that to happen, right? I am willing to talk regarding this matter and resolve this petty quarrel. I don’t get mad easily but when things get worst, you’ll see where I hide my envidias. And by the way, don’t say that I am just mimicking you. Nothing is original in this era. “Even the word original is sometimes faked.”
Fifth, those four things stated above really gave me some of life’s lessons. There are instances that:
a) you need your friend’s advice to supply that missing piece of the puzzle.
b) It is not always love that makes our world go round. Sometimes, it is our decision whether we want to make it go round or turn the other way around.
c) Plans that were made are very much better done than said.
d) Words that can’t come out of your mouth to avoid hurting anyone… comes out in the net!
